February 18, 2024
Second day in Varkala. I am completley depleted. Exhausted to the core, I arrived only to find the place I had booked online that picked me up at the airport is an absolute dive. Very dirty, energy is heavy, and above all a hard bed. Still on some websites there are the old photos of when it was a beautiful spot. Very misleading. So if anyone is going to Varkala, stay clear of Shiva Guest House. Also, overpriced!
View from my window…not too pretty.
Many years back it was a happening place, something went array. It is in a state of decay. And I was too tired to do anything about it. I walked around the next day, in a daze, looking for another option. Ended up going by the guest house I have stayed at many times. It was booked. In two days I will be able to move in. Clean, bright and beautiful energy. Then I will be able to rest and rejuvenate.
View from my soon to be guest house…Cliff House
Two minutes from the beach:))
I am not really sure what this intense time is about. It’s been so big on so many levels. Deep porocess. I don’t think I have ever felt so defeated in my life. I prayed constantly, and kept handing it over to God. Friends were always in communication, keeping me grounded and providing hope. I was having a hard time finding any. And yet I survived, one more time. I released so much on a deep level, pain and despair. Felt like ten years of cathartic therapy rolled into a few days “what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger” Just when we think there is no more to clear….haha….this is a lifetime journey….and it’s what I signed up for!
Whatever it is, I know am being purified. And I say bring it on, in a gentle way please… I’m kinda tired. 
So onward and upward, I am here for the long haul. All is well in the world and I know “everything’s gonna be alright:)”
The sun is shinging, the soft breeze is gently touching my shoulders as I gaze out over the Arabian Sea….and above all God is great 🙂
