At long last, this is what rejuvenation looks like

April 27, 2024

(at last I am posting my last post in India)

I booked this journey back to India with the intention of rejuvenating from the past few years of the plandemic. My soul needed to be fed. I had lost my mojo somewhere along the way. I deperately needed to find myself again.

The beginning of the this adventure went a BIT sideways. “A bit” is probably a large understatement! I guess I needed to top up the stress level. The couple months leading up to this adventure I had been feeling like I was coming back to life. A month in Penticton housesitting for my brother and his wife while the family went to Italy for Christmas, time with my mom and my sisters. I was beginning to feel more alive. India here I come!

Maybe my soul needed to go right to ground zero before, a complete “reset”, not the WEF kind LOL

Less than a week into this trip I was more exhausted, emotionally and spiritually depleted than I was before I left. One challenge after another kept presenting itself. I began to question my choices. Was I on the “wrong” track? How could this be going so sideways?
Although, I knew deep in my soul that everything always works out and there would be a blessing…yet, I must say I had many moments of intense soul searching.
Just keep walking I told myself, you will reach the other side of this….

It took 2 long months to be in the state of feeling I was on track with my original intention of rejuvenation. My mojo was being restored!
I feel lighter in spirit. So much had cleared from my being. Self acceptance has been one of the key issues that has been shifting, the harsh inner judge has dropped away.
Shifting into this stage of life has brought me to a new level of acceptance. A few months ago I turned 65…how could that be?

I like to say that I am “youthing, not ageing”

It is a only a state of mind, right?!

I had a dear friend, Alma, who has passed, who often said “Sasha, you have no idea how old you are!” True, I don’t. I am blessed to have the opportunity to “age” many don’t.

I am incredibly grateful for EVERY bit of this crazy journey. The Ups and the Downs. Even the moments I thought I may lose my mind.

While on this journey I have had countless AH HA moments. I feel a profound sense of renewal taking place. Contentment is creeping in, moment by moment. Not a familiar place for me to reside in, as I am always looking for something new. Excitement. Experiences. Presently, I am taking life day to day, intending for the adventure, and accepting what is in front of me.

I have spent my life just “handling” things, facing my demons/challenges on my own, I just did what I had to do. I never knew, or felt, the debilitating fear that comes with being vulnerable. It was a foreign experience. No matter what I was going through. I could handle it. So, when this feeling of vulnerability kicked in I really thought I may be dying. It completely overwhelmed me. I had no idea this was buried deep in my cellular memory. It was a hidden blessing. (although it didn’t feel like that while I was immersed in the experience)!

These experiences brought me to my knees, and with that came the gift of release. I have faith that what I need always presents itself…eventually:) and it did. And now, I feel free!

The Ho’Oponopono prayer was part of this healing journey. (I have posted this prayer on my page as it heals on a deep level)

This new feeling of contentment has been an immense gift. It has even helped me to live with this heat and humidity in Varkala! Whew. Got to relax into it and just “Be” The humidity is incredibly high most of the day, everyday. Twenty five years of coming to India and I  have never been in such intense heat day in and day out.

Cold treats help:)

As I sit on this rooftop of the Sky Lounge on the Varkala Cliff (rooftops are my HAPPY places) watching the sky change from blue, to pink and orange casting its glow over the Arabian Sea.

I feel inner peace, and I know I am in the right place and…

Life IS Beautiful:)